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I came up with the idea to make this site for you after being up for three days, because I couldn't
sleep for awhile after I talked to you on the phone for the first time in what seemed to be an eternity. So if parts are a
little off I appologize. I just wanted to make sure you know how I feel.
Today is Tuesday, April 11, 2006. It has been three weeks to the day, since you were arrested.
I thought it would get easier with time, and I thought hearing your voice and talking to you would help me. I can see now
I was way off with that assumption. The one phone call I had been praying for is the one phone call that broke me. I feel
torn apart inside, like someone just reached into my chest and ripped my heart out and tossed it in a blender. I have not
been able to eat in, I think four or five days now. All I have been able to do is wander around like a lost dog, and cry.
I knew I loved you, I knew I loved you alot, but my god Bryan I wasn't prepaired for the intensity of all these emotions that
seemed to swallow me whole. Right now I think I am finding out what "Love Sick" really is. And it's not a joke and it's not
fun at all. It is seriously making me sick to my stomache, I can't stop shaking. Baby I miss you so much it's killing me.
When they took you away from me they were taking everything good in my life. I know we've put each other through
hell and we haven't exactly acted like the perfect couple, but damn it I love you, and without you by my side I become a noodle.
I don't have the strength to be without you. I swear to you Bryan I never in my wildest dreams could have ever imagined the
ungodly amount of love I have for you, I never would have thought I had it in me, I can't now figure out where it's all coming
from, but I do know one thing for sure, every ounce of it is for you. And ONLY you. If there is one thing you can carry with
your for the rest of your life, and know it in your heart to be true, let it be this; I love you with every fiber of my being
and then some, there is no possibility of me ever loving another, I have invested every little piece and part of me, mind,
body, and soul, in you, and that is where I am meant to be til the day that I die, but even then I will still be yours. Only
you hold the key to my heart. I hope it's a gift you will always cherish as I do you.
To the world you are somebody...
To somebody you are the world...
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